Things have been difficult. I mean, I thought Friday the 13th was alright actually. Like, the only bad thing that happened to me was the stupid vector test. Freaking disaster. But that was to be expected, I guess. I spent the previous night studying for history, which I'm more likely to pass anyways so....... And then there was the Chinese test, which I might actually pass as well. I don't know.

But Friday the 13th WAS unlucky. Just when I thought it was gonna be an awesome day, it didn't. It turned out badly. It was disastrous. So I went to sleep last night, pretty upset. And when I woke up this morning, nothing changed. Huh. I don't know what I expected. But it just made me more depressed when I realized that everything's still the same. Messed up.

And there's no more Magnum ice-cream in the freezer. So I have no ice-cream to get depressed over. So what do I do? I boot up the Mac and start downloading emo screamo songs. And I now have an entire playlist for sad songs. I know it's unhealthy to indulge in my own misery but right now, I can't stop singing along to the chorus of 'Disenchanted'.

I don't want to be myself anymore. I don't want to go back to society and be normal and act like I'm awesome and fun and everything's great because right now, it's not. I got in too deep and now I can't get out. Which sucks major balls. Because I should've known what was gonna happen since I've already experienced it before. I know what happens when I push for too much. And yet I still did. Looks like I really am stupid.

So. I don't know what I'm gonna do to make myself feel better. Maybe meet with Azira and begin the never-ending whining. I don't know. All I know is that I need the ShoeThrowers to make everything okay again.

Where my bitches at?

went into BANKAI MODE at : 9:43 AM